Co-stud’s eyes, faculty’s ears, and
fame is only few of what I’ve got during my first year in this institution.
Honestly, it’s not just about my wits
and looks, but also because of my heart-openedness to others that I became famous in the campus.
Now’s my second year around in this
campus, but with a big change. Who I am last year, was shattered in one TEST.
My g
f got two lines in pregnancy test. It took five months before we got the
courage to open it with our parents. Nobody knows the roughness and struggles
we took with those five months.
Tears were starting to pour, sorrow
starts to growl, and pessimism was reaped during those five months. It even came to our thoughts that the child must be
aborted for our future sake. It was like a 30-70 chance! 70% of aborting it and 30% of not,
but you know what? Amazingly, 30% won with heart-felt gratitude.
Courage and bravery were our ace to
win our guts BUT why can’t others see it? Why can’t they see the braveness of a
young heart ready to conquer the world’s real-time challenge? I really thought “they’d”
help us out or even encourage us BUT no one did, they even belittle and put us
into shame.
Friends forgot our friendship,
neighbors gave away our bond, and even mentors and teachers abandoned us. Are we
always in the line of fault? I am having a Values teacher now, pointing out
like he had a student recently in which he gave a grade of 91% and impregnated
someone. I know he’s secretly pointing out me. He embarks to class’ minds that
he got wrong of giving 91 or simply saying, I’m unworthy of that grade in his
eyes. Isn’t it unfair? The teacher is like saying that no matter how you study
nor persevere if you got SINNED or being in a big SCANDAL you’re unworthy of
91%. Is my interpretation wrong? How clean is he? Is he an angel? Haven’t done
any bad things before and now in front of us acting like an angel in disguise?
Is he a saint, dictating and judging lives of others through his judgemental
mentality and perception?
YES! I made a huge fault! YES! It was
all wrong! But didn’t you think that I cry about it everyday and night? Do you
want the child to be aborted just to make ourselves clean like you? That the
pain and suffering they made me feels is aching every night? Isn’t this pain
enough? Isn’t my life enough?
Is that what you call a teacher? After
your student got down, instead of helping him or her you even push him or her
in the muds? Backbiting, gossiping, and destroying the life of your young
student? Is that the quality of a teacher? Well, if it is.... MAY YOUR CLASS BE
DISMISSED!
